Malas costumbres

Tonite I don't feel like putting on the show. Tonite I'm completely worn out.

How should I even feel about this? There are days in wich I can take all the crap you want to give me but there are days like today in wich I just want to give up.

I'm hurted, my heart is broken, I'm lost, dislocated. I have no motivation, wish I was somebody special but I'm not.

Life has funny ways, some of them, the worst. Art on its powerful ways can barely save me and so if I hear nor see something I can relate to, something I can find beauty in, that's enough, I'll hold onto it.

I'm empty, loneliness is killing me, I can't take it anymore. You see, it's almost one year without ever going out of bed, I just left my dreams right on the pillow I cry on every single night. Memories can be so painful at times and moving on hasn't been an option, no matter how hard I try, once you knew life next to somebody it is so damn hard to get rid of all those ways.

I make my living everyday by the memories of you, it's obsessive, it's unhealthy, it's scary and it must be wrong but I'm still stuck in here.

I just don't feel like fighting anymore tonight.

⚓ Someday you will ache like I ache ⚓

Fa

❤